Back in junior high, I had this crush on a girl (::gasp:: a girl) named Lisa (name changed). I wasn’t really sexually aroused by her; it was more of a fascination thing. She was really skinny, had a cute voice, and played volleyball and soccer. She was more butch than me.
Today I thought about her and wondered what it would be like to be in a relationship with her. I guess in a heterosexual relationship, I’m supposed to be the dominant, protective one. If I worked out and developed some muscles, I can perhaps pull off that part.
I further delved into this hypothetical scenario.
I imagined going panty shopping with her at Victoria’s Secret. I’m definitely not a fan of lace or anything frilly. (And before anyone asks, no, I have no inclination to try on women’s underwear or lingerie.)
But could I truly love a female?
Maybe. But as of now, it’s really just a fantasy I want to play out to be normal and accepted in society and church.
I’d be happier with a man, but I still have this nagging feeling that homosexual relationships are against God’s word.
But what female would want to be with a guy who’s attracted to other guys?